Quick reminder!

Tomorrow remember to run up the road and buy

• Some foundation (preferrably cheap shite from the natural section so that I can afford more)
• Some Rimmel concealer (best stuff!)
• Some lipstick (in nude, coral, a light shade of pink and a gold-ish one)
  
  

Embarrassed

is not the word, I was so drunk on the previous post.

Crapsong.

Can't bare my arms
For fear of my scars,
When I do,
People look at me like i'm from Mars.

They're not self-inflicted,
Just shite I have to live with
Until my heart has reached it's limit.

They say,
Men are from Mars, women are from Venus
I must be from jupiter,
I should have a penis.

I'm rude, I swear, I smoke,
Always the butt end of the joke
But I wouldn't be happy
If I was a bloke,

Because a
Womans perspective
Of life and how we should live,
Of giving what you should give
Makes you more responsive

To the
Bollocks that we see
Every day
From children starving to the K.K.K
Makes you want to get right up and
Make a change
And who knows
Maybe we'll get there one day.

As I walk down the street
And hear the tapping of my feet
Nothing else, I feel so at peace

With myself
My body
My life and how it's going
I feel myself change
And adapt, as i'm growing.

Recently i've felt on a permanent high
No one ever can knock me about my life,
Sure i've had my lows and done some daft things
But yet when I take the time to breathe and think
My mind becomes clear,
I won't remember next year.

Eventful

nights.
It's currently 2:52 and I have spent the last 24 hours in bed recovering from a mad party that was now tecnically 2 days ago.
I turned up half an hour early in a taxi fit for a king (a.k.a a huge people carrier type thing) and sat in Beths garden with Lottie, Beth, Daisy, Conor and Lucy drinking gin and smoking, and trying to play the 'G'day Bruce' game.

After drinking a lot more everyone else turned up and there was a nice big group of us chilling and chatting when suddenly we hear that there are loads of people outside and that more are coming, I looked out the window and there were loads of the buggers on the front lawn.
The police were called and they all ran off.

Then after about half an hour of chilling, the buggers came back but there were more this time. they climbed over the garden fence and they were surrounding the house, some of them were inside the house too.
Beth locked the back door and she was really upset which sucked and made me want to hurt someone.

The police were called again, and after they heard that two kitchen knives were missing they were doing searches on people. In all the commotion me Alec, Daisy Conor and Lucy all crammed in Daisys moms car (Conor went in the boot) and she dropped me and Alec off at penns lane where, after a failed attempt to walk me home, I walked home alone.

After getting in I was greeted by my mother, her friend Cheryl and my brother Craig all drunk and smoking in the garden, so I joined in until about half 4. After a full bottle of rosé, 6 cigs and some cheesy mash I crawled into bed at quarter to six.
Woke up at half 8, drank my weight in water then went back to bed and haven't moved since!

And Daisys having a party tonight, which will kill me.

Fun stuff!

Note to self!

Download the following songs that iTunes managed to reject like an arsehole.
-Keep The Faith
-Don't Walk Away
-Fly Away
-Streetwalker
-Just Good Friends
by Michael Jackson and also
-Girlfriend In A Coma
-First Of The Gang To Die
by Morrissey.

I fucking hate modern tecnology sometimes!

Know what?

Who gives a fuck.
So what I don't spend hours painting (i'm not even that much of a painter, collage and textiles is more my thing if i'm honest.).
So what I don't dream about art and death and religion and all the other things these arty types dream about.
So what I don't drink my coffee black.
And heaven forbid I enjoy food and eat at least three meals a day.
So what i'm short.
So what I don't have flowing locks that look immaculate even when i've just woken up.
So what I look terrible without makeup.
So what I don't drink red wine (it's tastes like piss and vinegar).

Fuck it.
I enjoy my life.
I have many passions, my life could go down any path I choose, just because I am currently undecided does not mean I have no future.
I will make a name for myself, doing something I enjoy.
And when I am certain what I want out of my life, you can be sure that I will work fucking hard for it.

Because, nowadays, being proud of yourself shouldn't make you appear obnoxious.
Having self-worth shouldn't make you look self-obsessed.

If you know what you want, go and get it, and fuck everyone else.
(Literally if you have to.)

Finally

gathered enough drive and inspiration to begin the start of my work.
Need to put my own personal projects on hold for a while and just focus on this.

Here is a preview of what is to come.
By the way, it looks a bit crap because I took it using the webcam attatched to the laptop i'm on at the moment. Couldn't be arsed finding my camera.

Stop

repeating!
This just keeps going on inside my brain.
The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out. You left me in the dark. No dawn, no day. I'm always in this twilight, in the shadow of your heart.

I have a very sore throat and i'm a bit hungry but oh well.
Shine on, and all that.

As far as I am concerned

I do not want your concern.

There's no

innocence left.
I feel vile today.









I will be fine tomorrow.

Reminder!

Kitty, when you get home download:
I'm Not Calling You A Liar,
Howl,
Kiss With A Fist,
Girl With One Eye,
Drumming,
Between Two Lungs,
Cosmic Love,
My Boy Builds Coffins,
Hurricane Drunk &
Blinding by Florence and the Machine.

Alice, I love you.

I remember reading Alice in Wonderland before I saw the film and how amazing everything was.
How, to a child it's a book full of magic and surprises, where things that never could exist suddenly spring in to life; and even to an adult, it seems like a drug-fuelled fantasy fairytale, yet still no one can deny the pure genius behind it.
I want my life to be more like Wonderland.
Where nothing is as it seems, and everything is full of spectacle and surprise, imagination, colour, ingenius wit and dark comedy.

"I can't explain myself, I'm afraid, Sir, because I'm not myself you see."
-Alice.

Absolutely

gutted at the amount of parties I have missed, they all looked like so much fun!
Still, i'll be home on friday so...
:)

Purchased

some Doc Marten-esque boots and an organic cotton top today, absolutely gorrrrgeous!
Such a fantastic day, and now apparently I'm going back home on friday instead:)
Yesss!

"And we kissed like we invented it."

I am in awe.

-Starlings
-The Bones Of You
-Mirrorball
-An Audience With The Pope
-Weather To Fly
-The Loneliness of a Tower Crane Driver
-The Fix
-Some Riot
-One Day Like This
-Friend of Ours.

"We're swapping the turf for the sand and the surf and the sin."

Sensational

album, Elbow - Seldom Seen Kid.
Absolutely fantastic I never get tired of it.

Don't be put off if Grounds For Divorce isn't your cup of tea, download the whole album, it stretches over so many different sounds, from sweet little acoustic numbers, melodic indie anthems to alternative tunes.

Lost for words!

Simple pleasures

like a handful of almonds with a bit of golden syrup.
Mmmmmmmm!

And I will only be complete when

these are mine:



Yumyumyummy!

Wow

I'm sooo in love with the world at the moment!
I am going to a festival in Edinburgh tomorrow, hopefully will go to Glasgow at some point in the next week.

The cutest thing just happened, my little brother and sister, Sam and Amy, were playing with trains, I wasn't concentrating so I don't know what happened, but suddenly my little brother threw his trains down and ran off crying.
I thought I would leave him to it, to calm down on his own but Amy followed him and I could hear her whispering to him,
"I'm sorry, Sam, I really am sorry, but listen; I still love you."
Cutest thing I have ever heard a 5 year old say.


I'm losing weight like a bitch and I don't know how it's happening, I haven't changed at all.
Maybe it's my hormones.
Well whatever it is, it better bloody keep going, this is ace!



What I love right now:

• Still in love with lace, even though everyone has at least one lace dress thanks to Urban Outfitters and Topshop, I still love the way it looks, feels and the simple elegance of it.
  
• Sex Pistols - Friggin' in the Riggin. I've been a Sex Pistols fan for a long time, but this song had slipped under my radar until recently. One of the most cleverly-written and hilarious songs I have heard recently.
  
• My Urban Outfitters monochrome patterned skirt. Ooh lala!
  

Oh and you're just a bit more than amazing too.

A true man.

Perfection.

Just marry me now.

Remember, remember!

things I need/to do.

• Save money for mucho new nose studs, try a nose ring.
• Come to a decision hairwise, stay bright red (limits makeup use, i.e. looks stupid with red lipstick but yet red lipstick looks great on me/red hair really goes with my skin tone/makes me stand out more) or chocolate brown (can wear whatever makeup and still look nice but will have ordinary, boring hair and will have to make an effort with makeup every day/but hair will get better condition-wise because I wont have to dye the roots or anything/but will look just like my best friend who has brown hair and a thick fringe)
• Buybuybuy more clothes! Am in desperate need!
• And shoes, I have various ideas of the shoes I want:
  
  
  
• Download more Björk stuff - There's More To Life Than This/Play Dead/The Anchor Song just the whole of her album Debut.
• Remember to file nails regularly instead of leaving them to crack until I have to cut them off and start again.
• Stick to this healthy eating regime I seem to have slipped into, it's working!
• Butter up mama to give me cash to maybe go camping on the Results Day weekend.

!!!!!!!!!!!
!!

Possibly the sweetest thing.

Haven't

done a new blog in AGES.

Quick update on my life, my holiday with the girls was FAB, I might upload pictures soon, depending on whether I can be bothered, it's a lot of effort on a slow computer yaknow!
Since i've got back i've spent my time panicking about results day.
I'm now in Scotland, again.
Cut off from practically everything, but i'm excited to be here, it means I can focus on the artwork that I have to do and have some time for myself to think about things.
Plus i'm thrilled because I loveloveLOVE Glasgow and we go everytime i'm up here so, yay!

Been working really hard doing research and writing notes, because the printers broke, I have to email all my work to my dad and get him to print it all off, like pictures to put in my sketch book but, i'm loving the fact that I now have more acryllics, my set is increasing!

Had a lush day today, watched a gorgeous film with Marilyn Monroe in (finally, a real woman! Did any of you know that Marilyn Monroe is one of the sexiest women of all time and was actually a size 16! Suck on THAT size zero). It was called "Let's make love" but no it wasn't rude you dirty minxes it was really lovely.
Then I had a really big cup of cocoa with three sugars and frothy milk, drew a couple of "bored sketches" mainly cosisting of high heels and pac man.
After researching various artists including Cornelia Parker (1st picture below) and Kent Rogowski (obviously second) and taking pictures of myself morphing light, I am now sat in the living room. It's absolutely freezing, my little toes are going to fall off! I can hear my step-mom trying to play with my little sister and her friend Ishbal. They are all screaming so loud and playing this chaotic hyper game it's making my head hurt.
My little brother is elsewhere on his own.
Like me, he's more than happy to be alone.
It's nice to have so much in common:)

Oh, now Ishbal's mom is here.
She is an odd looking woman, and she's quite rude too. I dislike her.
She looks like she never returned from the crap fashion phases of the 90's.

The headache is getting worse, i'm starving!
Hmm...