CAN'T BE FUCKED WITH YOU
KNOW WHY?
ALL YOU DO IS BITCH AND MOAN OR FLIRT WITH ME.
OR ALL THREE TOGETHER.
YOU ATTEMPT TO BULLSHIT BUT I SEE STRAIGHT THROUGH YOU.
AND YOU DON'T EVEN LIKE ME ANYWAY, WHY BOTHER?!
Just fucking fuck off.
I don't need someone like you around, with all your fucking baggage.
Sunday, 27 June 2010
Friday, 25 June 2010
Old wive's tales.
http://thelongestlistofthelongeststuffatthelongestdomainnameatlonglast.com/tales.html
http://www.writers-free-reference.com/13wivestales.htm
DO AT LEAST 2 A4 SKETCHES.
FIND RELEVANT ARTISTS.
DA VINCI/PICASSO TECHNIQUES!
http://www.writers-free-reference.com/13wivestales.htm
DO AT LEAST 2 A4 SKETCHES.
FIND RELEVANT ARTISTS.
DA VINCI/PICASSO TECHNIQUES!
Wednesday, 23 June 2010
Sat in Art
again, dossing.
Watching an art film based on how childhood affects your art.
Curently the focus is on Tracey Emin, we've just watched Grayson Perry.
Watching an art film based on how childhood affects your art.
Curently the focus is on Tracey Emin, we've just watched Grayson Perry.
It's actually dead interesting.
I lovelovelove Tracey Emin so much, I have for a long time.
T.E FO' EVAAAAAA.
I lovelovelove Tracey Emin so much, I have for a long time.
T.E FO' EVAAAAAA.
Monday, 21 June 2010
I swear
my love life this year has been fucking disasterous.
I should get "hopeless romantic" tattooed on my forehead!
I should get "hopeless romantic" tattooed on my forehead!
Do you ever
meet someone/speak to someone and you connect/find them attractive and then in your head imagine a future together?
I was speaking to my friend about this the other day, so I know it's not just me who does it.
You like, imagine seeing them everyday, and being part of their lives, and cooking them meals when they're ill, and picking them up from school/work, and going on day trips, and nights out with all the mutual family/friends you'll acquire.
Well basically I did that today about someone new.
Not gonna go into too much detail incase she reads this.
But it's confusing.
For reasons i'll go into if something comes of this.
I was speaking to my friend about this the other day, so I know it's not just me who does it.
You like, imagine seeing them everyday, and being part of their lives, and cooking them meals when they're ill, and picking them up from school/work, and going on day trips, and nights out with all the mutual family/friends you'll acquire.
Well basically I did that today about someone new.
Not gonna go into too much detail incase she reads this.
But it's confusing.
For reasons i'll go into if something comes of this.
Sunday, 20 June 2010
I'm so
inspired at the minute.
I just want to rip and tear and paint and stitch and pour myself onto a canvas.
But for now I shall stick to shitloads of artist research.
I get lazy last year, but this year I am going to try with my art.
I know I have the skill and potential to succeed it's just the effort that gets me.
Sometimes I hate being so naturally chilled and lazy with work.
Artartartttttt.
I just want to rip and tear and paint and stitch and pour myself onto a canvas.
But for now I shall stick to shitloads of artist research.
I get lazy last year, but this year I am going to try with my art.
I know I have the skill and potential to succeed it's just the effort that gets me.
Sometimes I hate being so naturally chilled and lazy with work.
Artartartttttt.
Friday, 18 June 2010
Bored.
Sat with Tom and Soph, bored shitless in the art room.
Gonna type in my research for my new project in here, so I remember to print it all off:')
-Nouvea Réalisme
Gonna type in my research for my new project in here, so I remember to print it all off:')
-Nouvea Réalisme
- Arman - Condition of Woman 1 (mixed media, metal, wood and glass).
- Jacques Mahé de la Villeglé - Jazzmen (torn posters mounted on canvas).
- Daniel Spoerri - Prose Poems (mixed media on wood).
-Postmodernism
- Jeff Wall - A Sudden Gust of Wind (photographic transparency and illuminated display case).
- Robert Rauschenberg - Almanac (oil, acrylic and silkscreen on canvas).
Kurt Schwitters - Opened by Customs (paper collage, oil and pencil on paper).
Schwitters' work is similar to the work of the Dadaists.
-Dadaism, http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dada
- Different techniques - Collage
- Photomontage
- Assemblage
- Readymades - Hannah Hóch.
- Marchel Ducamp.
Thursday, 17 June 2010
What a
fantastic day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So much has happened!
I'll mention the most important one first.
Two people hurt me deeply earlier in the year.
And although I didn't care most the time, I still held a grudge, and it made me bitter.
Although I settled things with one of them pretty early on, I still hadn't gotten the oppertunity to talk to the other one face to face.
The oppertunity arose today, and I was quite impressed how she was the one to talk to me first, instead of the other way round.
We hugged and giggled and it was nice.
She seems like a proper lovely girl.
That alone has just allowed me to let everything go and see that the past is irrelevant, all it is, is memories and occurrances.
As from now i'm going to live for the now, consider this my lesson learned.
I've never been built to hold grudges and i've been scrutinised for forgiving people too easily/quickly.
But I would much rather be happy and maybe a little naíve than some bitter and twisted twat who doesn't trust anyone.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh:)
The second thing is, we went on an art trip looking at some A level exhibitions and honestly, it was brilliant I had such a goooood time!
The weather was beautiful and everyone was dead chilled it was fab!
Click on the pictures below to enlarge them:)
The third thing would be that I know i'm lonely and single and I know I don't like someone at the moment and probably won't meet anyone new to sweep me off my feet anytime soon.
But I don't mind so much:)
I whinge a lot and make things out to be a lot worse than they are, sometimes.
But that's just me.
The truth is, I have amazing people around me, I have brilliant oppertunities at my fingertips.
Sure, it'd be lovely to have someone to share myself, my friends, my family, my experiences, my future with.
But i'm not going to waste the little time I have moping about feeling lonely.
That's not living, that's sitting about wishing you were!
And I think i've been doing that long enough now.
Today has been such a good day, I'm so happy.
Genuinely.
Oh, and I can't stop listening to this song!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WW06AH0D6mY
So much has happened!
I'll mention the most important one first.
Two people hurt me deeply earlier in the year.
And although I didn't care most the time, I still held a grudge, and it made me bitter.
Although I settled things with one of them pretty early on, I still hadn't gotten the oppertunity to talk to the other one face to face.
The oppertunity arose today, and I was quite impressed how she was the one to talk to me first, instead of the other way round.
We hugged and giggled and it was nice.
She seems like a proper lovely girl.
That alone has just allowed me to let everything go and see that the past is irrelevant, all it is, is memories and occurrances.
As from now i'm going to live for the now, consider this my lesson learned.
I've never been built to hold grudges and i've been scrutinised for forgiving people too easily/quickly.
But I would much rather be happy and maybe a little naíve than some bitter and twisted twat who doesn't trust anyone.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh:)
The second thing is, we went on an art trip looking at some A level exhibitions and honestly, it was brilliant I had such a goooood time!
The weather was beautiful and everyone was dead chilled it was fab!
Click on the pictures below to enlarge them:)
The third thing would be that I know i'm lonely and single and I know I don't like someone at the moment and probably won't meet anyone new to sweep me off my feet anytime soon.
But I don't mind so much:)
I whinge a lot and make things out to be a lot worse than they are, sometimes.
But that's just me.
The truth is, I have amazing people around me, I have brilliant oppertunities at my fingertips.
Sure, it'd be lovely to have someone to share myself, my friends, my family, my experiences, my future with.
But i'm not going to waste the little time I have moping about feeling lonely.
That's not living, that's sitting about wishing you were!
And I think i've been doing that long enough now.
Today has been such a good day, I'm so happy.
Genuinely.
Oh, and I can't stop listening to this song!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WW06AH0D6mY
Tuesday, 15 June 2010
All I need
is someone new, sexy, funny and cute to be my little whipped bitch.
Someone who I can wrap around my little finger.
Who won't fuck me around 'cause they're too devoted/keen.
Someone who will make an effort with my friends/famalam.
Someone who will want to see me/talk to me. Not all the time, but often enough to be cute and not annoying.
Asif, man.
This person doesn't fucking exist lolllllll.
I'ma just be a spinster FO EVAAAAAAAAAAAA.
Living alone and living with a billion and one cats until I die in an alcohol-induced coma at 35.
Fuck it, I'm marrying Sam in 13 years.
Someone who I can wrap around my little finger.
Who won't fuck me around 'cause they're too devoted/keen.
Someone who will make an effort with my friends/famalam.
Someone who will want to see me/talk to me. Not all the time, but often enough to be cute and not annoying.
Asif, man.
This person doesn't fucking exist lolllllll.
I'ma just be a spinster FO EVAAAAAAAAAAAA.
Living alone and living with a billion and one cats until I die in an alcohol-induced coma at 35.
Fuck it, I'm marrying Sam in 13 years.
Sunday, 13 June 2010
Decided
to change the name of my blog to something a lot less pretentious.
The previous name implied that I actually take myself seriously.
I don't. Well, not all the time, hehehehe.
Raaaaainraiiiinrainyraiiiiin.
Back to sixthform for a month starting tomorrow.
Nice.
Oh yeah and nice one, Kit.
Texting him when you're drunk was a REALLY smooth move, wasn't it?
You tit!
:')
Oh well, don't care anymore.
The previous name implied that I actually take myself seriously.
I don't. Well, not all the time, hehehehe.
Raaaaainraiiiinrainyraiiiiin.
Back to sixthform for a month starting tomorrow.
Nice.
Oh yeah and nice one, Kit.
Texting him when you're drunk was a REALLY smooth move, wasn't it?
You tit!
:')
Oh well, don't care anymore.
Saturday, 12 June 2010
Going crazy
again.
I feel the need to get all this out, that way I can just man up and forget about it all.
I think the reason why I keep getting spontaneous bursts of anger is because I can't really tell anyone about it because i'm scared to piss people off with my problems.
There's been so much tension with everyone recently over various different things that I just want to talk about happy stuff and ignore any bad stuff so that everyone will be happy and less confrontational.
But it's been driving me mad, i've always been very vocal about my problems and keeping it in has only made it worse.
So here goes.
And before I begin, this isn't to have a dig at anyone, I'm not blaming anyone and I'm not trying to start drama.
I just need to clear my head.
The reason why i think i'm so angry is because I'm angry at myself.
I keep blaming other people in my head but really I'm just fuming at myself.
How stupid I was, how naíve I was to just let myself go with someone again.
When you like someone, you're willing to believe anything, and I genuinely believed that I would never bore you and that we'd progress and grow in our relationship or whatever the fuck it was.
I just felt comfortable with you, I suppose.
And now it's done with and I don't know what to feel apart from anger towards myself for letting myself waste so much time on another person that didn't want the same things as me.
I'm furious that I didn't see the signs.
I'm infuriated by my behaviour towards you, I should have known it would freak you out, it'd scare anyone!
I just feel like the world's biggest tit and i'm angry at myself for letting myself like someone and then scaring them away; thus wasting another three weeks of my life on a boy.
In total I have wasted approximately 13 months of my life on boys, and I am only just 17.
An entire fucking year, and then some!
What a joke.
Well fuck boys.
WHERE DA LAYDEEEEEEEEEEEZ AT?!
This hasn't been written for your amusement, that has never been what this blog has been about.
This whole thing is for me, and me alone.
If you take enjoyment from reading my blog then that's nice, but the whole idea of this was to help me to clear my head in a more contructive way than starting fights or hitting things.
I do know one thing.
I am on the fucking PULLLLLLLL tonight!
I have whiskey, smokes and nice clothes, all I need now is someone sexy.
And I shall find someone tonight, trust me!
I feel the need to get all this out, that way I can just man up and forget about it all.
I think the reason why I keep getting spontaneous bursts of anger is because I can't really tell anyone about it because i'm scared to piss people off with my problems.
There's been so much tension with everyone recently over various different things that I just want to talk about happy stuff and ignore any bad stuff so that everyone will be happy and less confrontational.
But it's been driving me mad, i've always been very vocal about my problems and keeping it in has only made it worse.
So here goes.
And before I begin, this isn't to have a dig at anyone, I'm not blaming anyone and I'm not trying to start drama.
I just need to clear my head.
The reason why i think i'm so angry is because I'm angry at myself.
I keep blaming other people in my head but really I'm just fuming at myself.
How stupid I was, how naíve I was to just let myself go with someone again.
When you like someone, you're willing to believe anything, and I genuinely believed that I would never bore you and that we'd progress and grow in our relationship or whatever the fuck it was.
I just felt comfortable with you, I suppose.
And now it's done with and I don't know what to feel apart from anger towards myself for letting myself waste so much time on another person that didn't want the same things as me.
I'm furious that I didn't see the signs.
I'm infuriated by my behaviour towards you, I should have known it would freak you out, it'd scare anyone!
I just feel like the world's biggest tit and i'm angry at myself for letting myself like someone and then scaring them away; thus wasting another three weeks of my life on a boy.
In total I have wasted approximately 13 months of my life on boys, and I am only just 17.
An entire fucking year, and then some!
What a joke.
Well fuck boys.
WHERE DA LAYDEEEEEEEEEEEZ AT?!
This hasn't been written for your amusement, that has never been what this blog has been about.
This whole thing is for me, and me alone.
If you take enjoyment from reading my blog then that's nice, but the whole idea of this was to help me to clear my head in a more contructive way than starting fights or hitting things.
I do know one thing.
I am on the fucking PULLLLLLLL tonight!
I have whiskey, smokes and nice clothes, all I need now is someone sexy.
And I shall find someone tonight, trust me!
Thursday, 10 June 2010
No sleep
again.
Been sat up all night singing/crying to The Hunchback of Notre Dame 1 & 2.
Such feeeeeeeeel-good films!
The soundtracks are amazing, too.
I love Disney soundtracks, they're fantastic, I have so many on my iPod.
If I saw me I would tell myself to go get a life!
But I can't help it, they're brrriiilllliiiannnntttttt!
My favourite soundtracks are:
He Lives In You - the Lion King 2
Heaven's Light/Hellfire - The Hunchback of Notre Dame
The Circle of Life - the Lion King
Two Worlds (by Phil Collins) - Tarzan
Not One of Us - the Lion King 2
Bells of Notre Dame - the Hunchback of Notre Dame
You'll Be in My Heart (by Phil Collins) - Tarzan
So fucking good, they take you right back to your childhood and you can just get lost in the different sounds and genres and feel the scene of the film around you.
Just re-read that and it sounds properly dramatic, but I have an overly-vivid imagination.
And i'm glad I do, to be honest.
Been sat up all night singing/crying to The Hunchback of Notre Dame 1 & 2.
Such feeeeeeeeel-good films!
The soundtracks are amazing, too.
I love Disney soundtracks, they're fantastic, I have so many on my iPod.
If I saw me I would tell myself to go get a life!
But I can't help it, they're brrriiilllliiiannnntttttt!
My favourite soundtracks are:
He Lives In You - the Lion King 2
Heaven's Light/Hellfire - The Hunchback of Notre Dame
The Circle of Life - the Lion King
Two Worlds (by Phil Collins) - Tarzan
Not One of Us - the Lion King 2
Bells of Notre Dame - the Hunchback of Notre Dame
You'll Be in My Heart (by Phil Collins) - Tarzan
So fucking good, they take you right back to your childhood and you can just get lost in the different sounds and genres and feel the scene of the film around you.
Just re-read that and it sounds properly dramatic, but I have an overly-vivid imagination.
And i'm glad I do, to be honest.
Wednesday, 9 June 2010
Tuesday, 8 June 2010
The Defamation of Strickland Banks.
Currently obsessed with Plan B and his new album.
I didn't think I would like it at all because Who Needs Actions When You Got Words was literally genius.
But I think it's an absolutely class album, dead chilled with a lot more guitar and drum beats over rnb but the lyrics are still as spot-on as ever.
Plus I think he's fiendishly gorgeous!
I didn't think I would like it at all because Who Needs Actions When You Got Words was literally genius.
But I think it's an absolutely class album, dead chilled with a lot more guitar and drum beats over rnb but the lyrics are still as spot-on as ever.
Plus I think he's fiendishly gorgeous!
Imagine this
But not pink, muted shades of blonde.
I am getting this on my shaved section which in the exact same place as this lady's, but more of mine is shaved, it ends in a line just behind my ear.
I AM SO EXCITED!
I am getting this on my shaved section which in the exact same place as this lady's, but more of mine is shaved, it ends in a line just behind my ear.
I AM SO EXCITED!
Pure and utter
emotional wreck these past few days.
Stress just kills me, seriously.
I feel drained and exhausted and panicky and frightened and it's horrid.
And it's really been fucking my mood up.
I've been a literal cunt these past few days, i've been mean to loads of people, being overly sensitive and paranoid.
It's just not like me.
I cannot wait to get this fucking exam over with, then I can relax and figure out what i'm going to do when I (probably) get kicked out of sixthform!
I'm just so exhausted.
And I've had enough of being overly sensitive it's making me so angsty and dramatic and I just blow things out of proportion in my head and panic.
And I could push a fair few people I care about away if I do that.
And that would be horrid.
So yeah, Kit.
Sort yourself out, you mess.
Stress just kills me, seriously.
I feel drained and exhausted and panicky and frightened and it's horrid.
And it's really been fucking my mood up.
I've been a literal cunt these past few days, i've been mean to loads of people, being overly sensitive and paranoid.
It's just not like me.
I cannot wait to get this fucking exam over with, then I can relax and figure out what i'm going to do when I (probably) get kicked out of sixthform!
I'm just so exhausted.
And I've had enough of being overly sensitive it's making me so angsty and dramatic and I just blow things out of proportion in my head and panic.
And I could push a fair few people I care about away if I do that.
And that would be horrid.
So yeah, Kit.
Sort yourself out, you mess.
Saturday, 5 June 2010
All day I have listened to nothing
but old school Laura Marling/Kate Nash.
Plus Laura Marling's newer stuff because it's brilliant, despite her silly accent!
Along with Dance Gavin Dance, The Beatles, Borgore, Be Your Own Pet, Metric and Lightspeed Champion.
Interesting combinations, probably matching my fucked up mood today.
Happy one second, fuming and upset the next.
Stop overthinking things, Kit!
Oh and stop reading your texts over and over again, they may be funny but I think mam's just heard you giggling from downstairs.
Not worth waking her up at half three in the morning really!
Plus Laura Marling's newer stuff because it's brilliant, despite her silly accent!
Along with Dance Gavin Dance, The Beatles, Borgore, Be Your Own Pet, Metric and Lightspeed Champion.
Interesting combinations, probably matching my fucked up mood today.
Happy one second, fuming and upset the next.
Stop overthinking things, Kit!
Oh and stop reading your texts over and over again, they may be funny but I think mam's just heard you giggling from downstairs.
Not worth waking her up at half three in the morning really!
Wednesday, 2 June 2010
Seeing
other people all confused with their love lives/relationships makes me really appreciate mine.
Like, with the fact that I'm all content and it's all nice and chilled and it's not all blown up and put on pedestals etc.
It's just really lovely and relaxed and it has potential to develop when we want it to.
Yeah.
This is good, Kit.
Don't fuck it up.
Like, with the fact that I'm all content and it's all nice and chilled and it's not all blown up and put on pedestals etc.
It's just really lovely and relaxed and it has potential to develop when we want it to.
Yeah.
This is good, Kit.
Don't fuck it up.
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