Ahhhhh:)

Now that is all of my chest i'm off to have a lonnnnnggg, hot bath and get ready for later.

Feeling very callllmmmm and happy now.
Like i've done some meditation or something, ohhhhmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm!

Oh, and if anyone was offended or shocked by my last post then, frankly you can sod off ahaha.
I'm not going to explain myself.
I don't do this for anyone else, the attention or comments or praise or WHATEVER.
I do this blog thing for me, so I can remember good things and rant about bad things.

I'm not going to flatter myself into thinking that anyone cares, but if you do then you know where to stick it.



Lalalaalallalalaaaaaaa!

OH AND

FUCK YOUUUU AND YOUUU ESPECIALLY YOUUUUUU!

I'M SO MUCH BETTER THAN AAAAAAAAAAAAALLLLLLLLLL OF YOU!
And I have very low self-esteem THANKS TO ONE OF YOU, yet I still believe in my heart-of-hearts that I am so much better off.

YOU'RE ALL BASTARDS.

But it's alright, you'll all get your come-uppance.
The fact that you're all twats just makes me feel so much better about myself.
And your actions have made me look better seeing as I did nothing but care for you all in one way or another.
Especially considering the fact that two of you would probably be dead now if I hadn't of convinced my friends/family NOT to stab you even after everything you fucking put me through.

BUT WHO CARES, alllllllllllllllllllllllllllll of your shite has just made me stronger.
And i've already proved from my past that I can get through ANYTHING, I didn't deserve your imput you absolute WANKERS.

I'M NOT A DOORMAT AND NEITHER AM I PREDICTABLE;
So if you think this is about you, even if it sounds like it should be, it isn't.
It's just your guilty conscience talking.

One of these people is in prison.

Change.

Feelin' it.

Ooooh, angst!

PURE TEENAGE ANGST!

I feel like being a bitch today.
I never have these days.
The last time I had a "bitch day" was three years ago.
But here it comes.

I feel like just being so cruel today.
So undeniably evil that I make everyone hate me just so I have an excuse to bitter, juuuust like I used to be.
That's how I feel.

But I won't.
I'll be as polite and nice as possible externally and just think harsh thoughts in my head.
Because I cba with drama.
People can just fuck off with their dramatics because I, for one, am not arsed.

On the plus though, I am surrounded by chocolate.
But I am determined to keep this weight loss going so I'll just sniff the chocolate occasionally ahahahaha:')

LOVE MY LIIIIIFE.

I don't think

I've ever been so grateful to not sleep alone.
Just what I needed.

Can't smoke or drink or anything else for the next week.
It's good because it helps to clear my head and helps me focus on what makes me happy.
I'm shockingly happy at the moment, last time I broke up with a boyfriend I was so upset it was horrible.
I think I just know it's not worth it.
It's too much effort getting over someone.
It's such a waste of my time, and I know i'm not going to live long.
I don't have that kind of time to waste.

I can feeeeeel a self-destructive episode coming on though.
I'm thinking a party would be the perfect setting for me to drink myself to death.
I wish I lived a healthy lifestyle:')


But if you sift through all the crap, it's so much fun being me sometimes.

Oh and

I feel like the biggest most gullable idiot alive.
Yes, that is how I feel.

I really need my friends now.

Feeling

strange and awkward and kind of angry but not I don't knowwwww.
And very very dumped ahaha.
Yes, I am back to stage 1.

MY INNER BRIDGET JONES IS BACK, WOOOOO!