I'm the one on the right, with the thumbs and weird drunken expression.
SO STRESSED.
Dropped French before the exams and now they're saying they think the best option is that I should just go to the exams and try to wing it anyway, my two teachers really don't want me to drop it.
Fuck that.
They can shove it up their arses, I've gotten everyone's permission, it's just them I need to sign the fucking sheet and they wont.
I've not been to any of the lessons for over a month, missed loads of school anyway.
I'm past the point of catching up, I can barely remember any basic French as it is!
I refuse to stress about an exam that I don't tecnically have to do.
It's a load of BOLLOCKS.
Fuck them, I'm not going.
My art exam is tomorrow and I am completely fucked.
It will take a lot of skill and luck for me to pull this off, quite frankly!
Fingers crossed!
My love life is a shambles, I just fucking give up seriously.
At least people still want me, which is comforting.
Shows i'm not completely unloveable.
I JUST DONT WANT ANYONE BACK AND ITS DRIVING ME CRAZY.
I need to meet new, sexy, funny people.
People with morals that won't fuck me around if I actually decide to take a chance again.
I'm not after anything long-term at the minute though, fuck thaaaaaat it's not worth the aggro.
But even when people want you and you feel at your best you can still get a bit lonely.
Only a little, but it's enough to put things in perspective a little bit.
Couples make me sick as well, they remind me how bitter and twisted I am.
I was walking to the station with two of my friends who are together, and they were all cutesy, kissing and feeding each other little iced biscuits and holding hands and whispering and giggling.
"In-love-Kitty" would have cooed, smiled and giggled along and remarked upon how cute they were.
But no.
I walked along, smoking, rolling my eyes, laughing every now and then but mainly focusing on the road ahead and the sunshine, feeling more alone than ever.
Surely this isn't the brilliant "single lifestyle" some people swear by?
Feeling alienated/bitter/alone when seeing other people in love?
Mind you, these people are probably a lot more independant that I am.
I just need someone sexy to manipulate into my little whipped bitch and i'll be fine.
Yeah, like that will ever happen, hahahahaa! :'D
Hey, first of all - Dont worry im not a crazy perv stalker - I just like to read peoples blogs.
ReplyDeleteI read this last post you wrote and i totally felt that i should mention that maybe you should wing the french exam; to go into a french exam and write something along the lines of 'I dont fucking understand french but i will list all the sexual positions i can think of...' would be halarious, not to mention, so liberating!
And dont worry about the art exam, as long as you have done enough planning it will be fine.
Im also in the same relationship status position and all of my friends are in relation ships, therefore i choose not to go out with couples because - quoting you - you have to walk along, smoke, roll my eyes and yeah, concentrate on the road ahead.
You seemed a little down and i thought it would be nice to let you know that your not the only one :)
Chloe Kelly.
Thankyou so much ahahaha:)
ReplyDeleteI appreciate this more than you can ever imagine, proper cracked me up!
Im glad, its the best feeling when you know that you have cheered someone up!
ReplyDelete+ Ive been ill recently and bored out of my mind so therefore have been reading everything on the internet that is interesting seeing as i cant do much else :(
But yeah, hope your well :)
x
Chloe
Ahahaha I doubt youll find my blog very interesting baba, it's mainly me whining ahahahaha!
ReplyDeleteBut thankyou, I really appreciate it:)
Awwww no:( I hope you start feeling better soon!
xx
Yes im feeling alot better now thankyou, and i dont know why but reading about other peoples life experiences is so facinating to me.
ReplyDeleteI suppose it also makes me feel 'normal' to know that everywhere people in the world have the same problems and that you dont have to be alone with them. it all sounds very cheesy but yeah.
I tried blogging once, but i always thought that looking at other peoples was much more interesting :)
xx chloe